i am...

i am weird because...
i can't eat bacon plain, but agree it makes any sandwich better
i believe all cats are out to kill me
i'm 19 and still pack my purse to the brim full of snacks for 3 hours of church
i have a hard time sitting through a movie, but could watch a TV series for several hours straight
i don't believe in over the counter drugs. at all. my parents have been trying to teach me otherwise for years, but i truly think it's just all in the head

i am a bad friend because...
i have become an annoying homebody, like really..i love just being home and never want to go anywhere
i'm selfish
i let some of you go without trying
i'm not open and honest about my feelings. i bottle everything up.
sometimes i can be really, realllyyy stubborn

i am a good friend because...
i try my best to stay in touch
i try to remain positive and always look for the good in others, even when it's sometimes difficult
i want all of my friends to succeed
i am loyal and really do care about you
i remember all of our best memories

i am sad because...
it seems like i keep distancing myself further and further away from the people i care most about
of the choices people close to me continue making
i could be more charitable, grateful, patient, etc.
i miss my family daily
nobody likes me and it seems like i will never get married. ever.

i am happy because...
i am currently drinking a mix of fresca and mountain dew- try it, it's delicious
i quite possibly have the greatest roommate/friend. she puts up with my moods/rants/me keeping the light on when she's going to bed/talking in my sleep/late night slap happy craziness and so on and so on. my life would not be the same without her
i have a selfless and giving family who i know would do anything for me
rexburg summer weather is warm and beautiful and the sun doesn't set til after 10
i live 5 minutes from the temple and i love seeing it every day and the constant reminder it gives me

i am excited for...
our family trip to China
FLORIDA on july 23rd...helllloooo friends, beaches and publix subs!
the day I get married (in a long time)
when I have a family of my own (see previous parenthesis)
a break from homework, tests and attending classes

**i don't usually post super personal thoughts on here, but it's kind of sad that it was much easier to think of negative attributes of myself and what i'm sad about rather than more positive and uplifting thoughts. i've been having a really difficult few days. let's just say, i need an attitude adjustment and start focusing on all the good in my life, because i truly do have a lot to be grateful for!

on that note...i'm going to start taking this advice to heart: